The what, the why and the breakthrough...(Part II)

Remember my "If I had no fear I would" post? Well, I figured that since I was willing to share my fears with you guys, I should be willing to share my breakthroughs, no matter how small they may appear to be.

The what? Walking on grass at night.

The why? Nasty looking, wet, cold, jumping things called FROGS...yack! Just the thought makes my hairs go up.

The breakthrough? Hold your horses! I DID NOT hold or touch a frog, that wont be happening. Here's the story: As I walked to my boyfriend's house, I spotted at frog. Instead of freezing, screaming and automatically running on the opposite direction, as I would normally do, I continued to walk toward the stairs. The beast, sorry, the frog started jumping away from me as I continued to walk. I never stopped or hesitated. For the first time I thought "this frog is actually afraid of me...it's running away!" I continued to walk and the frog continued to jump away, until I could not see it anymore...I felt great. I didn't have that sense of defeat I would normally feel after letting myself be controlled by my fear. This time, I walked away empowered and with a smile.

Now, I know this may not seem like a world changing event, since it's a small breakthrough...baby steps, as people would say. But that's just how it woks, little by little, one breakthrough at a time, I'm in the process. Every breakthrough is one less thing that can keep me from reaching my potential. This breakthrough has made me better, because I now feel more courageous, which is a leadership quality, so I'm now a better leader, which means that I can have a better impact on others and, through that impact, God can change their lives. Now, how do we change the world? One person at a time...so this might have been a world changing event after all.

Sorry if I lost you...it all makes sense in my head. :) Just celebrate with me, would you?

Thank you God, thank you for those baby steps that can potentially change the world!

A Pookie lesson...

Meet Pookie, my Parent's dog. He's also known as "the shadow", because he would be next to you all day. He would walk beside you from the bed to the bathroom, to the kitchen, to the living room, back to the kitchen and, when you sit down, there he jumps and stays next to you, until you get up and there he goes again...to the bedroom, to the kitchen... He does this until you feel like you need to take a Pookie vacation and, with a firm voice, you send him to his little house. He stays clear for a little while and then he comes back on duty as Pookie "the shadow" all over again. He just does not get tired of being next to you. He's a needy dog, I guess. It's like he's always cold and needs to be next to you, close to you to survive.

I wonder if God wishes we were more like Pookie. Instead, so many times I'm the very opposite. I get involved in so much, doing so much, distracted by life's craziness that I sometimes forget that the only way I can stay alive is by walking every single step next to Him. He loves spending time with us. I might get tired of Pookie following me around, but God never ever gets tired of His children walking next to Him. In the contrary, He promises to bless us, to teach us, to shape and mold us, to fill us with His joy and abundant peace through our daily walk with Him. He wants us to understand that we do need Him, every day, every second, to survive in this world. Like Pookie, he wants us to stay close, side by side, so He can pour His blessings on us.

I must try harder, walk closer. Hopefully, on the days I forget, Pookie will remind me.

He loves me....

He loves me, even when I mess up. He forgives me, even though He knows that I will, for sure, mess up again. I look at me and see...you don't want to know, He looks at me and sees potential, then He smiles and calls me beautiful.
God, I don't get your love, I don't understand it, but I'm so glad to have it. It's all I need...

Frustration frustrates me....

I hate feeling frustrated! Even more, I hate the fact that I get easily frustrated. A situation, a conversation that hits a wall, an argument with no immediate solution, a simple miscommunication, all these scenarios have the same potential...I get frustrated. When I feel like I don't have the answer or when I feel like I do, but those around me don't agree, when I loose control of my own emotions I get frustrated. Then, my frustration brings a response, a reaction, which eventually makes me feel feel even more frustrated...but at me. Why? Well, no one likes to feel judged, no one likes to feel misunderstood, but the truth is that no matter how much we try to avoid these situations, they will come. They are part of this life we live with people as imperfect as us. I hope I can learn to deal with things better. Frustration only makes things more difficult, because it brings with it more frustration in response.

God, have mercy on this daughter of yours. Give me the wisdom to deal with the things that bring these feelings to me and thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for seeing Jesus when you look at me.

To blog or not to blog...that is the question

I don't know if this happens to you, but it sure happens to me. Sometimes I feel that, as a leader, my blog should always inspire, encourage, uplift and so on. However, not everyday do I find a spiritual lesson to share with you guys or a word to encourage, not everyday do I feel positive, not everyday do I feel like I'm on top of the world. Those days, even though I want to blog, I just don't...I feel like I have nothing to give. But tonight I was thinking, there's no requirement, there's no outline to follow, there's no need to be up all the time or to have a life changing post for the world to read. I can just be naked, truthful, transparent, honest...I can just be me. I'm sure that those days when my brain can't come up with something amazing to blog about, but I still make myself available for God to use me...He does. So, my dear reader, even if this post was not life changing for you, it was for me. I feel encouraged to keep on giving, even when I don't really feel like I have much say...I'll leave the life changing part to God...He's good at that.

On that note, I'm going to sleep :)

To think about...

Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies within us while we live.

-Norman Cousins

Some pics from Promissa's video shoot...

Promissa in town next week

Hey guys, just want to let you know that my girls will be in town next week, so Promissa will be having a couple of performances. We will be making some noise with FRC at the Weston Town Center this Saturday at 9pm. Please come out and check us out after service!!!